Monday 23 December 2013

Off-season 2013 - an opportunity too good to turn down

This post is long over-due but it seems that every November my commitments go through the roof and my spare time is minimal...what this creates is a very tired Hayley so thank goodness i'm now on holidays, visiting my brother in the US with my parents for Christmas!

After the end of the 2013 season i had quickly signed up to the majority of my 2014 races with my focus all set, and with the intention to go through the season solo, basing my training around recommended triathlon training programme books. However, the fact that i'm so busy means i have no time to read said books so when an opportunity arose to work with someone i have long followed on twitter it was too good an opportunity to turn down. Simon Vincent works under the business name Body Bullet Dynamics (@bodybullet on twitter) and he has a fantastic setup at his home with top quality equipment that i could only look on at with envy when i walked into a triathlete's dream one-man gym set up!

The thing that attracted me was the scientific approach as i'm a scientist in my outlook on situations in life, plus the emphasis on building strong muscles in the gym as there's nothing i like better than a ripped body and my guns looking fine ;) (not that i have a ripped body i should add, but it's definitely a goal now!)

Simon's approach is the most thorough i've ever experienced and it meant a 9hr assessment day spent with him, lucky he's a nice guy lol! This assessment day was to gauge my strengths and weaknesses throughout a number of different areas from hydration levels, body fat analysis, nutrition, to core stability and strength, my maximum power wattage on his beloved watt bike, and various other tests looking at my body strength and ability to sustain power during a few relatively short, but very hard tests. Simon also looked at my run technique, and given my long-standing achilles problem he was able to make some suggestions that might improve not only my run performance but also the injury over time.

http://www.totalcyclingperformance.co.uk

Following this assessment day Simon provided a very comprehensive report which outlined the results and what they meant. Just from the assessment day alone i knew there were areas i needed to change and the big factor was the amount of aspartame i was consuming in various forms: pepsi max, sugar free chewing gum, and ribena light. the high levels of false sugar meant my liver was struggling to break it all down and it was leaving my body dehydrated, even though i was drinking at least 2 litres of water a day, along with pepsi max. From that date, back in mid november i have quit chewing gum and ribena light, low fat products have been binned and my diet has gone an overhaul. Pepsi max...well i cut right down to one a day, and then when i had gone through what i had in the fridge i went 12 days without having a single drop. I even lasted an entire 9hr+ flight to USA without drinking any of it but when i got to USA i finally cracked and i had half a can, and on the second day just a mouthful...i love pepsi max and i'm not sure i can ever do without it, but i've certainly cut it out as a regular thing in my diet. When we went out to a restaurant yesterday i replaced it with Stella Artois, lol, so that seems a good swap to me!!

I'm on a new diet now, which i'm still getting my head around in terms of the quantities i should be eating of proteins, fats, and carbs, but the main issue is increasing my veg intake through the roof, even though i thought i ate a lot of it, and thinking about what i'm eating in relation to the training done that day. However, i did warn Simon that being in the USA for a family xmas it would be impossible for me to remain super strict as the desserts out here are impossible to say 'No' to, especially when it's only once a year that i get to be seduced by them. What i have done though, is made wiser choices when i can, and earlier to walked to the supermarket to buy salad stuffs for lunch, rather than snack on the chocolates that are here...however, my 8 week progress session will not show the weight loss it might have otherwise, due to xmas falling smack bang in the middle of my first 8 week training block!


The training i've been doing has been great, although initially the focus has been on improving my aerobic performance so there's been no hard interval sessions on the bike. I also haven't run for the whole of December, hoping that a month's layoff will heal the achilles/calf problem, but i've also been referred for a scan to check there's no damage, just in case. I've had fortnightly osteopath sessions with Batman aka Mike Griffiths (@MikeTheOsteopat) and this has kept me loose but i'm hoping that this enforced layoff will mean i can get back to what i love - running! The concern is that my first race is 16th Feb, with my first big race a GB qualifier duathlon on 8th March!! However, Simon is confident that with the work i have been doing so far will mean i can quickly get back to where i was running wise, and then quickly improve to a new level.

The focus has been on lots of bike work. What has been a revelation has been tweaking my bike set up so i'm now cycling pain free in terms of my knee and back, and that hasn't been the case for at least 18 months!! I've been trialling a new saddle also, to try and cure saddle pain on my sit bones, but so far that issue is still not resolved :( however, the fact that i was able to go 3.5hrs on the turbo without pain in my knees was breathtaking and i could have carried on!! that was the furthest i have ever cycled and i'm now very confident in building up distances and doing so with ease :) i've been working within a strict heart rate zone to train the heart to be more effective and i quickly noticed improvements in that i was having to pedal faster to get my heart rate up...that was until i got a blasted cold and then my heart rate was running high so i hardly had to put any effort in! What that meant though was an enforced few days of rest the week before my holidays started, the third build week before a recovery week, as i was exhausted and knew that with my heart rate running as it was that i wouldn't benefit from "manning up" as it might only lead to feeling even worse. I did feel bad about this, feeling that i was missing out on gains by not training, especially with the attitude amongst many triathletes out there that you just need to "man up" and get it done, however, Simon was very supportive and encouraged rest rather than pushing through. Thankfully the last few days i've trained well and today is a well earned rest day before my recovery week starts tomorrow where i get back swimming after a week off. 

So where am I at? Well...i've been super busy with my sport psychology golf work and i've also started back at uni meaning i'll have a 5000 word assignment to hand in in March. On top of this i've created my dissertation survey which is in its final tweaks before i can pilot it ready to collect my data when the new triathlon season starts. Work has been busy with many new complex clients and on my flight out to the USA i read 5 academic articles to try and make the most of the time and educate myself to be a better psychologist in 2014.

However, i'm also thankful for this opportunity to work with Simon and i'm very excited to see the gains play out when things all start coming together and i start putting some speed work into my training. I'm cautious about returning to running however, hoping that that first very short run is pain free with no after-effects either...For now, i'm on holidays and i will enjoy, and within moderation i'll have my xmas indulgence. I'm thankful for having a fantastic family, and i'm grateful for the friends i have, and also to the readers of this blog. This time last year i never expected to have raced in a GB trisuit, nor did i expect to have set up a blog and for people to actually read it, and enjoy it!

So i thank you, thank you for taking the time to read my ramblings, and i wish you all a very Merry Christmas, and know that anything is possible, both good and bad!! Never assume, and never take things for granted, and if you get an opportunity to do what you want, then grasp it with both hands as who knows whether that opportunity will arise again :) Bring on 2014!!!!!!!



Friday 1 November 2013

October 2013 - rest, new opportunities, and some frustrations...

The start of October for the past 2 years has meant my end of season annual leave and time off from training :) I was ready for some time off, as the only extended leave i had had was my trip to turkey, an emotional rollercoaster of a trip, and then i had a few days off in july to watch wimbledon, so definitely in need of a recharge of batteries and some sleep. This October was also significant as it was my mother's 60th birthday so the two of us went off to London for a few days to do what we love to do, watch theatre shows, shop, and eat good food :) Tea at the Ritz was simply amazing, and Phantom of the Opera and Les Miserables were truly wonderful. We also got to do a little sightseeing but because we were so busy and i wasn't getting up at an ungodly hour on my time off i didn't make use of the 5 star fitness facilities are our lovely hotel. They even had a 25m pool!!!!!

Tower Bridge 
Even though October was my month of no real formalised training, other than 4 days off straight at the start of my leave i have been ticking over. I have had some days where i've taken an extra rest day because of circumstance but my swimming has been twice a week and i've seen great improvements there with regards my feel for the water, my breathing capacity, and my power with my pull. I'm also spending a lot of time on the turbo and it helps that i have a sky+ backlog to keep me going on my low heart rate zone rides with the odd sufferfest video thrown in to spice things up every now and then. I've also started going to a pilates class and i think this has possibly helped with my breathing. What has happened though is that asthma has been diagnosed now after i returned to the nurse. My blood tests were all clear but the peak flow rate over a month showed enough of a pattern for me to be started on a steroid pump as a preventative measure and then a ventolin pump as and when i need it. If it will finally allow my lung capacity to feel more like it should given my fitness then i'll be one happy bunny! I'm back doing strength work and have been building up slowly, yet to get back to the gym, but instead doing body weight work, trx exercises, and basic kettlebell work. I've finally ditched my obsession with protein bars and did lose the weight i put on during my "eat what i like week" but these past few days where i've made a hearty lentil based soup i've found myself feeling bloated so that obviously wasn't the right choice for me. I know it's the off season, and i'm allowing myself beer when i fancy it, i'm also trying to make positive changes to my diet to get to the weight i want to be, whereas the past 2 years i've been carrying just a little bit too much in my opinion, even though those who know me would cry out that i didn't need to lose any. On the negative side my running is still hampered by my long standing calf/achilles problem. This flared up again without an apparent cause early september and whilst i reduced running volume and intensity right down it wasn't helping, not even with regular stretching and osteopath treatments, This week i haven't run at all and it's killing me as i love running the trails in autumn and i've also missed the first west glamorgan cross country fixture for Celtic Tri, with the second race also likely to be missed too as crosscountry isn't exactly forgiving when you have a calf/achilles problem. Another thing i did, given that's it's a month of doing different things, is a 2hr charity zumbathon, and i went on a date! The date itself went well, or so i thought, but it wasn't meant to be, so it's back to me, myself, and I! What i haven't yet managed to do though is get on the golf range or throw my climbing shoes back on!

Meandering through Chinatown, London
Speaking of golf...what i have started this month is sport psychology support work with young golfers who are in the south wales regional squad of Golf Union Wales. This opportunity came unexpectedly, through my MSc in Sport Psychology at Cardiff Met (UWIC) and whilst it'll mean a big time commitment with often 2 weekends of every month having a commitment, it also means i get to put my sport psychology into practice and will help me gain experience ready for any private work i pursue in the future. I'm also back on the dissertation wagon, having met with my tutors this evening, so i'm hoping to get my data collection sorted soon, ready to start data collection when the tri season starts next spring. So i'll have a fine balance ahead of me with full-time work, sport psychology golf work, my dissertation, a MSc module after xmas, and then the usual things like training, running a house, and making time for family and friends!!

As i enter November so there's an exciting development occurring which i'm super excited about. More of that next blog no doubt...As for now, well i'm enjoying my turbo time as the weather and free time hasn't been in favour for outside rides for a while, and i'm actually really enjoying swimming, although my bad that i missed this morning as my body just said 'No!' I really hope to get back running in time that i can still enjoy the trails without them becoming too muddy and also in enough time for my races which i'm already signed up for! I've paid up for 6 already and that's all my A races sorted, with only one or two others to fit in, but even if i didn't add anymore in then i've got one exciting season ahead and i'm conscious to have enough time between each race to build and to also use some races as training races rather than tapering for every race as i did this year.

Happy November everyone!! xx


Fantastic contrast of bleak black clouds against the backdrop of sun overlooking Celtic Manor golf course

Sunday 27 October 2013

Last race of 2013 season - Forest of Dean Autumn Trails Half Marathon

Following my DNF at Bala my frustration was ripe for thrashing out a few hard training sessions to work off the energy i didn't expel at Bala. However, unfortunately, my chest continued to be tight and therefore training was affected. I was able to run but chest would be tight throughout so only managed to clock a 9 miler in the build up to the half marathon, meaning i hadn't ran the full distance since the last time i ran a half marathon - March 2012! i had run 11.5 miles about 2 weeks before Bala but not the prep i had wanted as i'd hoped to do a lot of beach/off road work and more speed work. As for the turbo, even if i only did 1/2hr easy spin i still felt almost sick afterwards so i was feeling quite demoralised. I got back swimming but chest still felt tight for a couple of weeks so felt out of breathe a lot of the time even doing just technique drills.

Rest and cold/flu tablets weren't working so i went to the GP and saw the practise nurse who specialises in asthma. Doing a peak flow test twice with the use of an inhaler in between showed my peak flow rate improved so she prescribed me an inhaler and asked me to monitor my peak flow rate for a month and then return for more tests. I also had to go and have bloods taken to test if i am anaemic. At least this meant i could train as the inhaler definitely helped, although sometimes my chest felt tight but the peak flow rate didn't reflect this, so i'm awaiting to go back and see what the outcome is. In a way though i'm glad there is something the matter, as it justifies my DNF rather than me not being able to 'man up' on the day.
Ready for the off :)
 However, i was determined the do the half marathon and the weather on the day was perfect, blue skies, sun shining, and a good temperature. I had decided to wear my vivobarefoot trail shoes as i thought with recent rain and it being autumn that there might be a lot of leaves on the forest bed floor that might make it slippery with potentially some mud. How wrong i was!!
No, i am not leading, lol!
My barefoot trail shoes have lugs on the bottom to help with grip but the sole is barefoot so i feel every stone, tree root, etc. One or two is fine but when it's constant it's not long before your feet start screaming at you in pain. The majority of the run was on forest trails with plenty of chippings, or large stones pushing up through the earth, or tree roots that you couldn't avoid. There was only a very short section (i'm talking only a few hundred metres) which was earth bed floor or grass :( not quite what i had in mind when i decided upon wearing them over my normal trainers. i had more like gnoll park in mind, lovely earth bed floors, endless leaves, etc. The plus side was my calf & hamstring were absolutely fine (these had both been bothering me quite a lot when running which i was conscious of), the downside was my feet were in absolutely agony and i'm pretty sure this affected how fast i could run.

Nevertheless, the course is beautiful, the support in the forest is great and i saw the same guy who cheered on "celtic tri" three times and i couldn't work out how he was getting everywhere in the forest. That was until i learnt that the course switches back on itself a lot, sometimes cutting across the same trails, so he was probably standing still in the same spot and i just kept passing him without realising! There were plenty of water stops although no energy drinks as in the spring version of the race. There were also loads of marshals so this race is definitely highly recommended, as there is plenty of parking and it's easy to get to. The route is different from the spring one but it wasn't as hilly as i had presumed. The climbs are more long drags than short sharp climbs which you get a few of in the spring version. However, there were plenty of steep downhills which when your feet are in agony was quite tough going. I had come into the race with a strategy but that went out the window as for the first half of the race my chest was quite tight and then the pain in my feet prevented me from pushing on. Boy was i glad when we got to 10 miles and i knew there was't too far to go. However, those last few miles seemed endless and i had to keep talking to myself to focus on technique, focus on what i could control and just keep pushing forwards. As we got to mile 10/11 i did try increasing pace at each mile marker from there on it but whether i did or not i had no idea as i ran without a watch or garmin (au natural). When i approached the last kilometre i sped up again and then the last couple of hundred metres put my usual kick in and must have overtaken at least 20-30 people just in those final two minutes.

Completely shattered, in so much pain :(

Crossing the line was the best feeling because the pain was over, i'm not sure i've ever hurt as much from a race. I had no idea of my time as there was no finish line clock but i found out i did it in 1:48:45. So my slowest half marathon of the three i have done, but the hardest also, not helped by my affected training & poor shoe choice. Afterwards i was completely shattered and just trying to jog to the toilet about 20 mins later my calf went into spasm, OWWWWWWW!!!!!!, so i then hobbled and waited in the 'free massage' queue for another 20 mins or so & then the girls doing the massage asked when i was limping!!!!!!! It helped anyway and i drove home without problems but when i got in i was so stiff i even resorted to a cold bath!!!!!! Can't say if it helped as my legs were in bits the next day but might they have been worse if i hadn't have had the cold bath?

I would like to come back to do this race next year though, with the right trainers on, and the right training, as it's a great route, and the drop down opening up onto the little lake was idyllic :)

As it was following the half i then had a week off work so i was able to rest properly and not have to worry about when i trained again as i didn't do anything for 4 days!!!!! not sure i could have even if i had wanted to! For now it's rest time, re-group, indulge a little, and then crack on for smashing 2014 as 2013 was definitely not what i had hoped for. It started off so promisingly with good duathlon results, then the unexpected trip to Turkey for the Euros in GB colours, but i still didn't race to what i think i am capable of with the right training under my belt, and the right head on when it comes to open water swims...

Tuesday 24 September 2013

My first DNF - Bala 2013

This was the race to end the season on a high. This was the race to show exactly what i am capable of. This was the race to put my renewed focus and quality training sessions into play. This was the race where i felt the best i had ever felt coming into a race. This was the race i was actually excited about, rather than nervous! This was the race where there was a depleted field due to the World Champs the following weekend, therefore a much better chance of getting a good time in relation to the winner of my age-group and therefore more chance of qualifying for GB again at the European Champs next year.

Unfortunately, this was the race where i did not finish, This was the race where i got my first ride back in the boat during the swim leg. This is the race where i felt like a failure.
Notice the choppy water - much worse in the lake itself!

Larking about pre-race, ready for the off!
The forecast leading up to the race kept changing so i knew there was probable showers and therefore went prepared with a few different options of what to wear. You always hear "never try anything new in a race" but due to the forecast i had bought a Skins thermal long-sleeve compression top which i could wear under my tri top to keep the chill off when out on the bike. It is a wicking material and feels very much like tri-gear so i am confident when i do  wear it it will hardly be noticeable. As it was i opted to go with just my  tri top/shorts but had arm sleeves ready in transition and if need be a rain jacket in my transition box. I had travelled up the previous day with my parents and we stayed in the same hotel as last year although this year had a room at the back of the hotel and it was wonderful - roomy & quiet! Registration went well and i checked out the transition area again, eyeing up the lake, feeling confident, unlike the nerves of last year of it being my first olympic distance. This year, the swim markers didn't seem that far away & i was well up for the race...feeling confident and relaxed.

Having had a good sleep i was awake just before 7 to have my porridge and also check the facebook updates being sent from Tenby for Ironman Wales which had a 7am start time. The weather back home looked amazing, lovely flat sea :) i wish i had had that sea rather than the deceptively choppy waters of bala lake! The morning started as dry but there was a good bit of wind down on the lake itself and there was definite chop on the water. However, this didn't faze me and i felt relaxed in the run up and then directly prior to my wave starting. Women were second wave off at 9:40am, with the younger men up to age 40 having already gone 10 minutes earlier, and the men 40+ coming 10 minutes after. My strategy on the swim was to start with everyone on my left as that is the side i breathe on and as the field spread out then cut a direct line up to the first buoy (all buoys were on our left). The swim is a one-lap affair and is easy to site. Most of the women bunched up on the left whereas i was in my own space on the right. i'd felt strong in the warm up, the water not as cold as last year and i heard one of the officials say it was 16 degrees which is decent as far as i am concerned!

The horn went and off we went...it soon became apparent that the water was even choppier than it appeared and i was only managing 7-10 strokes before a wave would hit me and i couldn't catch my breath. i'd never experienced this before. sure, i've swam in choppy water, and in large swell, but this was different, this time i couldn't get my breathing settled and it wasn't due to anxiety. i would stop and then try going again but soon realised that it wasn't working so i tried switching to breaststroke but even then i couldn't get my breath and could only manage short gasps. i was alternating between 7-10 strokes of front crawl and then not being able to breathe so having to switch to breaststroke and i tried to keep this up. by this point i knew it was race over in terms of the euro qualifying time as i was already so far behind my wave, regardless of not being the quickest swimmer anyway.

i kept telling myself just reach the top of the length and then it'll be ok as the chop won't be pushing you back anymore and it'll be easier to catch your breath but i wasn't getting anywhere fast. trying to breaststroke when my breathing felt restricted meant i didn't have much power in the stroke so the chop working against me meant i was wasting a lot of energy without any reward. by this time i was starting to feel isolated as all the safety kayaks were inside the buoys rather than on the outer edges. surely they would think that those taking the inside line were the better swimmers and those on the outer edges had placed themselves there for a reason? maybe if i'd had a kayak for moral support i would have been able to persevere? by this time my wave were already on their return leg and i still hadn't got down one length yet...the second wave caught and passed me and i was starting to feel pathetic with the sense of isolation and loss of control fuelling slight anxiety.

i could see my euro trip to kitzbuhel gone and i felt bad that i couldn't take my parents back to where they honeymooned. I was also starting to think that they might get concerned if they realised all the women were out of the water and they hadn't seen me...do i stick with it, not able to breathe properly and energy in my legs fast going, hoping that once i get to the top of the length (about 700m) that it'll all be OK, or do i quit? give in? admit defeat? i admit, i was hopeless, feeling despair and i concluded that even if i did complete the swim, in what would have been the slowest time by a long mile, then i would have had no energy, or breath for the bike or swim. i threw an arm up in the air (the sign that you want help), but no kayak saw me, i tried again, still no response, i took a few more breaststrokes but still couldn't get anywhere so again i threw up an arm and again...starting to get desperate now...eventually the kayak saw me and had to paddle 100m or so down to me. was i allowed to touch him? but then he asked, am i quitting the race? - yes i was, so of course i could hold on...i then got towed into the middle where the speed boats were, i felt sorry for the men swimming as we cut right across their path - sorry :( but it felt so good to not have to fight to keep going anymore. i got pulled up into the boat and then returned to shore. i felt dejected, i worried that my parents would see me and panic that something awful was wrong. i could see people looking at me knowing i had quit the race...i felt i had let people down by not being able to "man up" and 'never quit". I'm not a quitter, but this was a DNF (did not finish), which means i quit the race :( this was my first race that this had happened in. i started to doubt myself straight away, did i quit because i couldn't handle the chop? did i panic and that's why i couldn't breathe? i was well and truly, absolutely gutted. i just wanted to crawl in a hole and escape. my parents were fine, but i just thought about the wasted trip, the wasted money, whether they wondered if i couldn't hack the swim. i just wanted to grab my stuff and leave but i couldn't even do that. transition wasn't reopened until all the people were in off the bike which was a good few hours later :( by this time the weather had changed and it was wet and miserable. what a cracking day this was turning out to be!! all that optimism and positivity. all that excitement about smashing the race and finishing the season strongly. i had all this energy and nowhere for it to go...by the time i was back in the car on the way home my body crashed...i was aching, sniffly, and could hardly keep my eyes open :( i had no cough though so i still couldn't explain my tight chest but i did remember waking up the friday before with a tight chest and not swimming as a result. i then started to question who i had come into contact with that might have passed a bug onto me...clients, colleagues...

whilst waiting for my bike back i was at least able to cheer on my club mates, but i was gutted that i wasn't out there, i wasn't the one crossing the finishing line...i was pretty down for a few days after, disappointed at how the season had panned out and how it had ended. But the frustrating thing was i still had a tight chest and therefore couldn't go thrash out my frustration and unused energy in a hard training run or bike ride. during the week i didn't swim due to my chest but i did try a run or two and a turbo. after each training session i felt 'blurgh', almost nauseous, and my chest felt tight. this wasn't right, but then there was no cough, so i didn't think it was a chest infection. all i knew was that i wasn't a happy bunny at all :( i still had a half marathon to do as well at the end of the month and i wasn't able to do the full distance run that i had planned to do the weekend after Bala. things seemed to be conspiring against me. then someone suggested to me about 'exercise induced asthma'. reading up on this it started to fit with my symptoms over the years. i always struggle when i run in cold air, or when i run in atlanta when visiting my brother, which is very dry air, as well as cold at xmas time. i wheeze as if i have smoked 20 fags a day for years & truth be told i have never smoked, not even a puff as a kid. then there is my breathing in the pool where i struggle with breathing patterns over breathing every 4 strokes, and when going hard i can only manage breathing every 2 consistently. i have complained of having a small lung capacity, even though i'm as fit as a fiddle. added to that my late gran had chronic asthma and as a kid i had a heap of chest infections...it was worth a trip to the GP to get it checked out as rest wasn't helping and with the half marathon edging closer i needed to get back training, even if only for my sanity (& waist line)!!

The appointment i got with the practise nurse was as thorough as i could have hoped and she checked my chest which was clear and asked me to puff on a peak flow rate monitor which confirmed it was quite a bit below the norm for my age/height & fitness levels i guess. she gave me 4 puffs of an inhaler and then i had to wait 20 minutes before repeating the peak flow rate test which showed an improvement...there it might very well be asthma. i have to return in a few weeks with a month's work of monitoring my peak flow rate and i've also had blood tests done to see if i am anaemic. when i return the nurse wants to run more thorough tests too. What this has meant is that i'm back training without chest tightness. i'm running, doing work on the turbo, and went back swimming this morning. i felt much better now that i can breathe properly. it's also a relief that there is a reason for my tight chest and my DNF at Bala. it wasn't a psychological block, which as a psychologist currently doing a MSc in sports psychology, would have been a tough pill to swallow. it wasn't me, it was an underlying issue which i'd never thought of as anything other than normal before (in terms of the wheeziness after running in cold/dry air). this also means that it can be treated. additionally, having it flare up now, where i was able to take a decision to quit and was relatively safe is better than having a full blown asthma attack (if that is indeed what i have) and struggling to get any air at all. i'm hoping it might also help with my breathing pattern in swimming if i can get more air into my lungs.

So whilst i'm still disappointed that Bala didn't happen this year and my likely chance at qualifying at bala for the euros outright has gone, i can also put it down to experience as many people have shared their DNF stories with me, or their swim nightmares. nobody is immune from things going wrong on the day. all i know is that i prepared as best i could have and i wouldn't do anything different in the run up to the race again. i have made a commitment to get out into rough open water more often next season to prepare for all circumstances, as it's never enough practice in those conditions and it'll be a good test for my chest in swimming in choppy swell again for future races, and to build confidence back up. i feel my swimming has taken a few steps backwards in recent months, for reasons unknown, so i'm committed to putting in a lot of swim time, focusing on technique and getting more value for money when it comes to the effort i put in and the output i get.

This is the week before the Forest of Dean trails half now and i'm raring to go. My body isn't sure it wants this race however, as i have knee pain when cycling and my back has been playing up but the worrying things have been my calf pain from last season returning, even though running has been reduced, and also i have a slight strain/tear in my hamstring. I had an osteopath session yesterday so i'm stuck back together for now, but whilst i had planned on training next week on my end of season annual leave (feels long overdue) i might have to take a few days off to let the body settle. saying that though i have a ton of house jobs i want to do, painting, sorting garage, etc...so they might not be conducive to easing the aches and pains! when i am training though, pains aside, i feel like a tightly coiled spring just waiting to be unleashed...i have all this energy yet to be properly spent so i'm going to go and enjoy sunday on a challenging hilly course, but give it my all as then i will feel that i have finished my season and earned a rest, rather than getting there by default...so here's to the half marathon...i'll let you know how it goes ;)

Wednesday 4 September 2013

A time of transition and the mojo returns...

Following my last race at Liverpool for the British Champs i spent a lot of time reflecting on things, and i'm a naturally reflective person anyway, so i never do anything without having thoroughly thought it through from all angles. Training was feeling flat, even though i was doing the sessions, and i was willing the season away so that i could close the door on it and start again. Don't get me wrong, there have been some good things this season such as the early duathlon results & also obviously slipping on the GB trisuit and racing for my country in Turkey. However, i felt like I had lost my mojo. I wasn't enjoying training, i wasn't enjoying racing, so i knew something wasn't right.

The weekend after Liverpool i went camping with a small group from my tri club for a training/social weekend at a local campsite in one of the most stunning parts of Gower. Camping is something i hadn't done since my teens but something i have long held ambitions to do but never had the courage to do as a single female, due to safety reasons. However, in the safety of a friendly group i packed up my little car with all my training kit plus my little 4 man tent (only really suitable for 2 people really). Luckily the bunch i was with were ever eager to help me put the tent up and then on the second night put the guy ropes in as i had no clue what to do with them! On the first night after setting up camp i went for a short run down some hills, along the beach, and back up some hills :) Then it was time to relax as I cooked pasta on my little camping stove and sat in my chair drinking lager and feeling instantly chilled :) It's amazing what a bit of friendly company and a few beers can do but it was certainly what the doctor ordered. The next day we had a lovely pleasant bike ride and i even indulged in a luscious slice of carrot cake (my fav) when we did a coffee stop at another beautiful beach location.
Rhossili
The weekend was a scorcher so i would happily have stayed put in the afternoon but i was coerced into a sea swim - my first open water swim since the jellyfish in Liverpool the previous weekend but i came prepared with suntan lotion that protects against jellyfish stings! I didn't feel comfortable swimming and the main group of guys had gone off like a train and were nowhere in sight, but i had a couple swimming around me, one i was looking out for so kept stopping to check her progress, and then Yoda himself, John, who was checking up on both of us! I've been having arm pain when i swim since i first started swimming for tri as far as i can remember but last year i mostly ignored it as when i reported it to the coach they didn't think anything of it. However, this year i've realised that ignoring it didn't help so i have been managing my swimming by cutting sessions shorts if the pain starts to kick in and not go away. I'm not sure if this was an excuse but i only did half the swim, getting out after the length of the beach - which was about 750 metres and walking back with another member who also got out because of injury. I think i did touch one jellyfish in my catch phase but no sting. The next morning i went off for a run by myself, just me deciding which turn to take etc., no pre-planned route and i absolutely loved it!! i felt like i used to feel when i ran - free, enjoying the exploration and the beauty of where i was, as much as the sensation of running itself. I took a mostly cross country route out onto the coastal path on uneven undulating terrain, before looping back down onto the beach, over the dunes, and then up Horton hill - a killer hill from the Gower Olympic triathlon run route. I have to say this time around it didn't seem quite as arduous an ordeal but that's probably because i hadn't swam and cycled beforehand, and didn't have to run it twice! However, this back to basics run - where i wasn't worried about time or distance was exactly what i needed to help me go searching for my mojo again...

This first half of this year, well in fact from mid autumn onwards has been difficult because i've been juggling part-time MSc study with my training, alongside full-time work. This tricky thing was my weekends were completely eaten up with training and then study up until i submitted a piece of coursework and then i would have a couple of weekends off before the work started again for the next assignment. I can't grumble too much as i live alone and am single, so it's not like i have family commitments and my time is my own, but it did mean for a long while i never felt rested and at times i had to choose study over training, and other times i had to make the decision that my work was good enough with the time i was willing to commit, so that it didn't take over my life. My last piece of coursework was submitted mid June, and then i made a presentation early july and that was my first year all done! I was pleased to find out that i had an average mark of a healthy merit across the year and i was even more pleased to be free of uni for a few months and focus on training, relaxing, catching up on other stuff (not that i seem to have done much of the catching up i hasten to add!!).

Fabulous quote i found by 'unknown'
I decided at the beginning of August to end my coaching arrangement with Rose. I was grateful for learning new training routes and new training sessions but i decided I needed to mix things up for the remainder of the season and therefore decided to go back to being coach-less. I also made the decision to not race in the Gower Sprint tri. I wasn't enjoying racing and decided i wanted a longer period to build towards Bala Olympic distance race, rather than have to taper for Gower sprint and miss out on a few days quality hard training. Since then i've found my second wind and am super motivated having got my mojo back with a bang :)

I opted to spend more time on the turbo so have thrown myself into The Sufferfest cycling videos. If you haven't heard of these i highly recommend them as they take away the boredom of the turbo and every video is a sweatfest that certainly makes you push yourself! There are many professional triathletes out there, some of them ironmen/women who do all their bike training on the turbo and only ride their bikes outdoors during racing. The elements are controllable, there's no stop/starting on the roads for junctions or traffic lights, you don't have to worry about idiotic drivers, potholes, etc. you can just focus on putting 100% effort in as on the road it's easy to coast, take it easy etc. if the ride is a recovery ride great, but if you're trying to achieve change through power/speed etc. they suggest that a turbo workout is more beneficial. I'm not saying that everyone believes this, as each to their own, but i have spent more time on the turbo recently, with a 2 hour ride down to Porthcawl and back completed last weekend just to get back used to my racing bike, rather than my training bike. Who knows how my bike time will look come Bala race, but i have enjoyed the variety of different turbo sessions as i hate monotony and like training sessions to be varied to keep things interesting, and challenging.

I have also switched my swim times to before work twice a week. I always used to swim pre-work last year and even though it can be difficult getting up before dawn to get to the pool by 6am, i always felt better after it and felt alive in work (for the first hour or so at least anyway!). I also invested in a new book "Swim smooth" and spent a bit of time reading this and various internet articles and websites looking into the shoulder/arm pain i was experiencing. I have since discovered that i was swimming with my shoulders rather than my lat muscles and i was also focusing on pulling with my hand rather than drawing the elbow back (making the forearm paddle more powerful). Having focused on this the pain has definitely eased when swimming although it still makes itself known from time to time, usually at the start of the swim. I have also had some useful tips from John and Simon who are part of the North Dock Dredgers swim squad whom i am now swimming with, so even though i still have one race left this season it's been useful having a few technique pointers to think about that seem to have helped as i need all the help i can get really. I had looked into getting an underwater swim analysis due to the arm pain and knowing something was not right with my technique under the water, but this fell flat. So, i'm hoping now once the season is over and we go back to basics that i'll have a quality winter training block given the progress i have made already from making a few small changes and that i will reap the rewards next year. I intend to swim at least 3 times a week over the winter, 2 squad sessions at least and then one longer swim on my own. I'm also going to get back in the gym and work on specific strengthening exercises for my lats/shoulders/rotator cuffs etc that will hopefully increase my power through the catch phase.
My new swim bible

Run wise...i've been enjoying doing my speed work down north dock as it's a change of scenery. Plus, my mother is into nordic walking and this is a great place for her to do laps without much foot traffic so we've spent the past few weeks of me running whilst she walks. A great way to catch up, whilst also getting a quality training session in. I also decided to enter an end of season half marathon to finish off the season strongly so i have upped my mileage recently, putting in a 11.5 miler a week ago, and i'll build again once bala is out of the way with 3 weeks then until the race. I decided to return to the Forest of Dean where i did a half marathon last year. They have a great half marathon that goes through the forest trails and the autumn race is meant to be hillier than the spring one, which had some hills in it as it was. So i'm not looking at this to be anything other than an enjoyable run through some beautiful countryside to end the season on a high as i absolutely thrive on the feeling of running, exploring new places, the sense of freedom that it all brings - that's what i have lacked, the pure love of training :) I've also really loved doing flat out speed work. busting a gut over a short distance flat out sprinting is what i love - pure speed :) so i've been tagging on some sprint runs after my threshold run sess :) best of both speed worlds ;) As for speed...well i've really, really started to miss the oommpphhffff of having a fast car...the grin i get from putting my foot to the floor and hearing the engine respond quickly and with guts is second to none...i miss that...but it costs a lot to have it!!

Come after bala now i'll get out on the trails and beach regularly to prepare the muscles for the unevenness of the trails through the forest. a chance for me to explore new places plus good prep for the pending cross country season starting again. Another reason for heading up to Forest of Dean is that i can check out the bike route of the Little Woody triathlon. This is a hilly half ironman distance race which has the run through trails again. I really fancied doing this race and needless to say it's been duly entered the day the entries opened. It feels very strange to have entered races as soon as they've been raced this year, and before my season has even ended, but the popular races fill up so fast now that you can't dilly saddle, you have to act. As it was i had already decided i wanted to make the step up to half-ironman distance next year, trying a flat course and a hillier course and as it happened i entered both my  half distances races on the same day! I'm in for the Outlaw Half in Nottingham on 1st June, and then the Little Woody on 23rd August. The Little Woody venue will also serve as a training base for at least one weekend in the build up, so that i can swim in the large diving quarry there, and also check out the hilly bike route. Preparation is key and if you can get used to the setting pre-race it helps settle anxieties and nerves come race day. Plus, living in wales i have hills galore to play with so i'll be spending a lot of time on bwlch and rhigos mountains, as well as venturing towards the black mountains as somewhere new too. A number of people from the club are stepping up to ironman distance next year so i intend to join in some of their training sessions to get the miles in the legs. having seemingly mapped out most of my season next year i'm already excited to get started on the next phase of my tri life. I'll refer to Don Fink books for training plans and tips but i won't stick to it religiously as the base phase refers to only 7 hours work a week, which given i already have a solid base i will add more to it, but without going overboard and peaking before the base phase even finishes!!

Today i booked my annual leave to coincide with my last race, the half marathon, and then i'll get a week and a day (with a weekend away in London in between) off to mark the end of my season. This is when i will do what i want, or nothing at all. I will eat what i want and get back into rock climbing for a month or two at least. I'll get jobs around the house done that i keep meaning to do but all my leave this year has been focused on training, getting coursework done, or going to turkey for the euro champs. I have only had a few days where i took them off just to enjoy, and because of that, that time was precious, not to be spent clearing a garage, or painting a kitchen! however, come end of september, at least a day or 2 will be dedicated to those very jobs!!

So here i am...in my week of taper and absolutely raring to go in Bala. My race head is well and truly on, i'm loving what i'm doing, i'm feeling ready to give it my all and leave everything out there on the race course. All i can do is my best on the day. if the conditions are favourable i'd hope to beat last year's times and if i get a good enough time then i might get onto the rolldown list again to try and qualify for the Euro Champs next year, in Kitzbuhel, Austria. if i don't get there, then not to worry, i've got the half ironman distances to focus on, plus a sportive or two, plus some duathlons, so still plenty to look forward to whatever next season holds...next stop bala so i'll see you all on the other side!!
Enjoying the run section in Bala 2012

Monday 26 August 2013

British Olympic Distance Triathlon Champs - Liverpool July 2013

Liverpool Eye
Mid July and we were off to Liverpool for the British Champs for Olympic Distance. This was also the last chance to qualify for the World Champs in London in September. Now just to say...i went here with low expectations...i knew i wasn't going to qualify for London, and i knew i wouldn't do anything of note against people in my age-group. This was just a chance to race at a high level; given that i had raced in Turkey, i felt i needed to mix it with the top of my age-group just to test myself, put myself on the line if you were.

I took the day off work on the friday as we had to register the day before and it meant we could have a leisurely trip up there, without it all being a rush. We chose the scenic way up, meaning lots of twisty roads which did make me feel a bit blurgh but just meant i needed to focus on the road ahead (i was in the back). Got to Liverpool and after one wrong turn we soon found the hotel which was smack bang on the run course and only 100metres or so from race HQ. There were paratriathletes and triathletes milling around everywhere, quite a buzz. The weather was perfect and there were fears that the water temperature would make it a non-wetsuit swim. Having unloaded and got everything into the hotel room, which had a lovely view of the Liverpool Eye, it was off to explore. The triathlon was taking place in the docks in Liverpool, two interconnecting ones...wapping and queen's, which meant swimming under bridges (which was cool, gave a relief from the glaring sun, but also unnerving in some way, not sure why), and this was the most technical swim course yet. The numerous turns meant it was interesting but at the same time meant a slower pace maybe? The bike course was out and back loops of the main road and then the run meandered through the dock areas, past some famous buildings like the liver building, so it was scenic, again interesting, and also meant some shaded parts from the heat.

 
Dreaded jellyfish caused anxiety mayhem!!
On the recce of the swim course and wandered down onto the exit jetty - surprising how bouncy the temporary jetty was. what was even more surprising was the ba**ard jellyfish looming the water!!!! Not what i had expected at all!!!!!!!!!!!! yes, there was rubbish in the water, and i had been warned it was salt water, but jellyfish!! enough to give me nightmares and it certainly caused me to be the most anxious i have ever been before a race. why, i don't know, as i have known there to be jellyfish in the sea swim races i have done, even touching one last year in the gower, and being stung by one in Turkey, but it unnerved me. Once i knew about the jellyfish i was definitely going to be wearing a wetsuit!

Anyways, we had a nice evening, the area around albert dock has really been developed and there was a lovely chilled but electric vibe to the place. We bumped into a few people i knew, which was nice, and what was nice was seeing people that i had met out in Turkey, so even though there were hardly any Celtic Tri people racing, i still had people to chat to.
Beautiful swim setting

I never sleep well before a race but when i woke i was really nervous, which was a first. It wasn't an early start, as race time was 9:45am, but i couldn't stomach breakfast. i managed about half a pot of porridge and later on took a few haribos to have at least some energy in me, but later on it would tell as i was running on empty on the run, plus de-hydrated as the water stations were "shots" of water, which was hot, and it was obvious they were rationing our water, even though when you saw the elite race they were handed full bottles each!! I would quite happily have gone home and not raced, and pulled out of all remaining races for the season, i was being to question why i do this to myself...However, i talked myself into it and race i did.

The swim wasn't fast, and i actually think it was long based on my time, but also the times of others i know. However, what was brilliant was the water support. There were waves every 5 minutes and each wave had about 8 kayaks with it, with each section of the dock being fully covered by plenty of kayakers. It was also settling to see the kayak track the last triathlete in each wave.

I started out on the left and was out of trouble for the most part of the swim until the wave behind caught me up. I always take a wide line when i know i am being caught by the wave behind but i could sense the presence of the wave coming and when the course narrowed into an off-shoot of the dock i started to get twitchy and stopped a few times to check where they were rather than being unnerved by being swam over. I know this lost me time and lost me a position or two but i wasn't in the race to win it, for me it was about getting out of the swim problem free given my anxiety before-hand, and then work on that for future races. What was annoying for my swim cap came all but off during the swim and i could feel it having risen up over my ear...do i stop and put it back on, or risk that it will come off and take my goggles with it...i stuck with it but you can see a photo of me exiting the water with the cap perched on my head line a cone!

Transition was huge so it was a long run from racking to the mount line but thankfully out on the bike. I was trying a new water bottle today, an aero one between my tri bars. However, my tri bars had been knocked going over a bump so were slightly misaligned causing the bottle to be at an angle. I drank the bottle in next to no time as it was a hot day so for future races i might just stick with 2 water bottles in the holders as i've practised still turning the pedals whilst taking the bottle, rather than free-wheeling to get the bottle. I had 3 gels on the bike, basically one at the end of each lap more or less - there were 4 laps on the bike, along with the 750ml of 3:1 carbs/electrolyte drink solution. The bike had 2 little inclines at either end of each lap, before a dead turn - this wasn't expected and whilst not major inclines, there were enough to make you change gears and sap the strength a little. When i first started the bike the course was busy but by the end it was much quieter and i was just getting passed by paratriathletes - it was amazing to see people cycling without any forearms, or just one leg...you wonder about the logistics of it all and it puts into perspective the pain you are in yourself.

As there were 4 laps it was great for spectators so i saw my parents each lap. In that respect the course was brilliant for my mother as there wasn't far to walk from the swim over to the position they took up on the bike course, before a short walk back to the run course. Ideal for achey knees!! with plenty of railings to lean on :) I felt OK on the bike but nothing that quick really. I gave it as best i could but i am still a long way behind the best girls in my age-group on the bike. I am sure i can improve though, it's just how much...

Prior to the race i had practised mounts and dismounts. I hadn't mastered the shoes on the bike with elastic laces thing as the elastic didn't break and i couldn't get my feet into the shoes, but on the dismount i had mastered hooking my leg over whilst still moving and then running straight from the dismount. However...coming towards the mount line here and i didn't feel comfortable trying to hook my leg over so i opted for my usual (my feet are already out of the shoes) and stopped, got my leg over and then run barefoot into T2. Lost time on the girl i came into T2 with but hey ho! it's all a learning curve. 

Out onto the run and the first lap was tough going. i was running on empty and it was baking hot - hotter than running in Turkey, but then this was 2.5 hrs later in the day. It wasn't helped by the minuscule water being handed out so i took 2 "shots" each time, one to wet my mouth and one to pour over my head. There were 2 laps on the run, 2.5k out, 2.5k back, x2. At the end of lap 1 i waved at my mother but said i couldn't smile as there was nothing to smile about, i wasn't enjoying and i was struggling. However, i said to myself to focus on what i could control, something i do a lot now. What i could control was my technique, so i focused on keeping good form and it definitely helped as i felt better and my parents said i looked better too coming towards the finish at the end of the second lap. No sprint finish needed as i'd passed and left for dust some girls i had been running near in the last lap. Fist pump to cross the line as the announcer had called my name but i was just glad to finish. When i asked for a second water bottle at the end i was told no, they only had enough for one each! I thought that was poor, a british champs race and rationing water on a boiling hot day - if i had thrown myself to the floor it might have been a different story though! you could see how dehydrated i was by all the salt that was on my trisuit from sweat. i hadn't had that in turkey. Time wise it was disappointing...slower than my bala time and therefore my turkey time, but faster than my gower olympic time - which given the hilly nature of the bike course and the brutal nature of the run course you would expect so! No post-race euphoria, was just glad to get it done. 
Coming towards the finish
We had paid a little extra for a late check out in the room which was great as it meant i could at least shower properly and feel fresh to travel home. I did go see some of the elites race but they weren't household names so i didn't stay long before i came back and we packed up and set off for home. The race was fantastically run, a great race bag, lovely tshirt that i had pre-paid for, but the water situation was disappointing. 

Would i race this race again? Hmmm...it knocked my confidence really as i hadn't progressed as i had hoped since Turkey, and i was way out of my league. I'm not the best in the local races so why i thought i could cut it with the best of the best is beyond me, lol. one of my blonde moments i guess! however, it is good to race in different places, to experience different courses, different atmospheres, see different sites. It certainly gave me food for thought for the remainder of the season though...i didn't enjoy the race...i hadn't enjoyed poppit sands...i wasn't happy generally with tri life...


Poppit Sands Aquathlon

Long time since i've written a blog post it seems...not that i haven't thought of it, just had a lot on my mind and not in a space to put 'pen to paper' as you were. Back on 7th July i did my first aquathlon race...this being a 1k sea swim followed by a 5k multi-terrain run. A short sharp race, but given that it was a club championship race, and also a way of forcing me to do what i don't like doing - swimming in a race, then it was a good warm up for the British Champs in Liverpool the following weekend.

The race was a late morning start so we were able to leave at a decent time and still get down to Poppit Sands with plenty of time to spare. The 90 minute drive to Poppit Sands was beautiful and the setting for the race was idyllic. With a little campsite overlooking the beach it was a stunning find...everything you would need there, with a big wide open beach, and crystal blue clear calm waters...



Mass beach start

As it was a club race there was a large turn out from the club which was great to see. The weather was perfect too, so the water was calm, and not too cold, and it wasn't too hot either, even though i had caught the sun a lot after the race having not put suntan lotion on.

There wasn't as many in the race as i'd thought, less than 100, so about the size of a wave start within a tri. I hung back a little during the run into the water but felt OK going out to the first buoy and then around to the left. Feeling OK i was swimming between two other swimmers, who unfortunately then decided to close the gap and they both took a stroke at the same time which meant a double wallop for me on the head as they swam shoulder to shoulder with me. I stopped due to the knock and one of the swimmers did stop, bless her. I took a few breaths to get my breath back and then off i went again. For the next 100metres or so though i was asking myself why do i put myself in these situations, why do i race in races that require me to swim?!?! However, the rest of the swim was trouble free. I wasn't quick, but felt OK, and swam around the buoys without trouble, only 1 or 2 around me. What i did notice was how bad others are at swimming in a straight line as that's something i'm OK at really, unless i choose to take a wider route. The swim felt a long way and then when i finally got out of the water i found it tough to actually get out - the sand stayed shin deep for quite a while and i was finding it hard to get out as quick as i'd hope. Then the tide had gone out during the swim so there was a long run up the beach to transition.


The tide had gone out during the swim so it was a long run up to transition
It was strange having a transition that was based o the ground with no bike racking. Struggled a little to get shoes on due to the added factor of sand and then out onto the run. The run would make a great training run, multi-terrain, some ups, some brutal soft sand bits...but during a race it wasn't fast and was a lot tougher than i had expected due to the soft sand where it was shin deep for long stretches.

I made up a few places on the run but i never felt like i got into my stride and i was very glad when i saw the finish in sight and i was able to overtake the woman in front of me to at least finish strongly, even if i was just glad it was over. Looking at the results after my swim had been average but the run could have been better given a couple of people who i am faster than had a faster run split. Still, this race wasn't important, and the main thing i took from it was how beautiful Poppit Sands was so it was a nice trip out with my parents, which ended in a nice picnic :)

There were some great results within the club so it was a success all round for the club and as for me, well i survived being bashed in the water but i know i need to be stronger and hold my own in the water, rather than getting a little anxious as soon as i see other people close to me in the water. Will i do this race next year...well it was very well organised by a local club, in a perfect setting, so if it fits into the schedule then i would certainly consider returning, as i'd want to improve on my run for definite!

Wednesday 3 July 2013

Euro Champs - Tales of Turkey 2013

It's taken me a while to write this as it feels like i'm only now fully recovering, everything back in order, time to stop kinda thing. I updated my adventure from Turkey on a mostly daily basis via facebook but this is a chance to put it all together, if i remember it all!

The anxieties leading up to the event had gone and i was all set to go. My z3r0d GB polo shirt had arrived in time, shame it was meant for a child rather than an adult! That has been a major disappointment about the whole event, the kit not being ready for us, or seeing some people with it but others not having any, yet all ordered at the same time. I'm still awaiting my tracksuit, hoodie and t-shirts! Chances are tho that the majority will go back as sizes and cut are meant to not be for the average joe bloggs! interesting tho to see all the juniors, elites and paratriathletes with all the kit tho. we have to pay our whole way & get nothing in return, and those that get there on elite merit get it all...
Ready for the off!!
I stayed the night in a local hotel near the airport to ease the rush and potential for traffic on the morning and my mother kindly kept me company so i enjoyed a nice relaxed meal, even allowed myself a lager and dessert ;) Morning of the flight and squeezed into the miniscule polo shirt just so that i might be recognised by other age-groupers and feel less alone. As it was i saw a few others in GB kit in the queue for check-in so at least i knew i was in the right place. Bags got checked in without a problem but as for the 15kg carry on well i was made to test that for size in easyjet's carry-on size cradle and i had to jam it in, but fit it did, only to then get stuck trying to get it out! thankfully other age-groupers realised my troubles and helped me out. Then another guy helped lift it into the overhead bin so at least people were being friendly. On the plane i sat next to a couple who i realised were also going to Alanya and as it turned out Helen and Tim were in the same hotel as me and when at the hotel we became friends and they kinda took me under their wing, which was lovely, to have friends out there. I also met another 2 guys on the transfer from the airport to the hotel, Adey and Steve and they also became friends, along with Danny, as we were all staying in the same hotel. Post race enjoyed a lovely evening in the bar drinking beers and chatting with this bunch which was lovely :)

The transfer from the airport was longer than had been advertised (over 2 hours) and there was no Nirvana Europe (travel company) rep on the bus which meant the bus driver had no idea where we were all staying and was shouting out random hotel names at us before stopping to ask for directions! However, finally we got to our hotel after 11pm to be met with the sight of 2 camels being walked down the street! i'm used to wild horses in penlan, but camels??

At our hotel and the staff had kept us some leftover dinner which was nice. It wasn't great, but at least it was something after a long journey and no food on the plane (unless you paid an absolute fortune!) As it turned out we got the best deal on the hotel. Right on the beach, a small hotel which was beautiful. The food was OK, not great, and on my last night i refused to eat chicken nuggets, pita bread and fish vegetable soup - instead opting to pay for a decent meal in the restaurant next door, but on the whole it was decent and i probably lost some weight as i wasn't eating as much as i normally do. Not to say i didn't snack, as i still treated myself with some choc from the local shop and some lovely jelly worms :) i also found pepsi max in plentiful supply which was great.
Beautiful sunset on the beach

The first day there i just wanted to orient myself so off i toddled for a couple of hours walking through the town, trying to find the important places for the race. I was surprised at how relaxed i felt walking through this strange town and the local shopkeepers, whilst trying to entice you into their shops, didn't harass and soon moved on to the next potential customer when you walked by without stopping. I actually quite enjoyed the attention by white blonde hair brought, even if i know it was all artificial! The walk from the hotel to the race centre was a good 1/2hr walk though so i walked a fair few miles in the week and in flip flops for most of that which wasn't great! I was also surprised that i wasn't bothered by the heat. It averaged about 30 degrees probably during the day and race day the water and air temperature was 26 degrees. Hot yes, but a breeze on the bike from averaging 20.5mph and on the run there were 2 water stations on each of the 4 laps, with some shaded sections too so i found the whole race fine. I was surprised to see a few turkish athletes, and GB athletes walking. During the build up to the race i didn't lounge in the sun, to be honest i didn't lounge in the sun full stop, but i wonder if those that did just lay and soak up the sun found any detrimental affect on performance come race day, i.e. more sluggish?

View from my bedroom balcony
I'd had no communication from my age-group team captain which was disappointing, especially as a first timer way out of their comfort zone, so i joined in with a group of mostly 50-54 yr olds for a recce of the bike and run routes. Doesn't matter who i go with, but as it was, Helen, Adey & Steve all joined in this recce so at least it was friendly faces again and some of those in this group were also on my flight over so i felt comfortable enough. The road surface for the bike wasn't as bad as british roads but it was bouncy in patches from roadwork repairs and the brick road surface in places. However, the course was flat as a pancake and nothing technical so i only lost speed during the race by sitting up to drink and take a gel on-board, and also when having my brain jiggled going over the rough patches. From this race though i have now bought an aero drinks bottle so that i no longer need to change positions in order to drink. The girls in my age-group left me for dust on the bike course, one girl i was chatting to post-race clocked an average of 25mph, beating my bike time by 8 minutes so all i can say to that is "respect". However, the race has given me areas i want to improve upon and getting an aero drinks bottle i see as free time ;)

The swim recce was a nightmare...there was no safety support, which i expected for an "official" swim course recce and it was a bit of a free for all - turn up and jump in! the 1500m turn buoys looked so far out it was scary and in actual fact on the morning of the race they didn't seem as far so i think they had drifted in the tide and even on race morning the course was still long by about 200m! I hadn't planned to swim the whole course but then someone suggested i might be best doing so to settle my nerves about covering the distance so off i swam. However the waves were rolling and i kept stopping on the outward stretch, hearing myself doubting my ability to race and thinking all i wanted to do was turn around and get out! As i was trying to sight so the waves were smacking me in the face and whilst it wasn't "that" bad the anxiety of feeling like i was out on the 1500m course all by myself made it quite disconcerting so in part i kept stopping for safety reasons. As it was when i was about 100-200m from the turn buoy, and after what felt like swimming for 1/2 hr i decided to cut around early as when i looked around i could not see another swimmer anywhere around and as there was no swim support it felt a bit disconcerting should i carry on going and then be out there all by myself. Also, i was afraid the group i came with (who were all doing the sprint distance 750m loop) would have got out and gone as it felt like i was out there forever! The cross swim was fine and coming back the waves pushed you back into shore lovely but it didn't help settle the nerves at all. But hey, i gave myself a talking to on the night before the race and having swam in the sea by our hotel every day i was used to swimming in rolling waves to a degree so i told myself to "man up" and get it done. It'd be the same for everyone and if i told myself to keep swimming then i'd get there a darn sight quicker than if i doubted myself and stopped. Having swam in the sea every day i also got used to how salty it was too, which was rather unpleasant but on race day i can't say i remember much about the salt taste so it can't have been that bad.

Transition on race morning...nice to see no bed hair for me this morning!!
Having psyched myself up and told myself that i was here and i could do this, i felt good. I only slept for about 3 hours though due to fireworks and a wedding party going on until midnight in a neighbouring bar and then the call to prayer going on over the loud speaker (this happened daily 4 times, day and night!). My alarm was set for 4:20am and up i was.
Brekkie was a mishmash of a bit of bread and jam and a cereal combo but it worked as nutrition wise i was fine with a 3:1 nectar fuel drink on the bike (drank about half) 1 gel pre-race, 2 gels on the bike, and then i used every drink stop on the run to take a sip and then throw the rest over myself to keep cool. What was great post-race was the cold wet sponges! i was missing my jelly sweets though post race, instead it was yucky fruit! My feet were sore at the end though as the water throwing had led to rubbing in my shoes as obviously i don't wear socks! luckily no bleeding, which i had been expecting, but i did have to plaster them up for a few days before that actually led to them almost becoming infected from not breathing so they came off and then the wounds started to heal.

So race morning and i got a taxi down with 2 of the lads. They were both a tad nervous as they weren't up for much chat where as i'm fine on race morning and quite relaxed. My bike was already racked having done that the night before, even with the hassle of being sent away for not having my helmet with me for racking to be told upon my return 1hr later that i was right and could have come in the first time. For a european champs some of the organisation was shocking to be fair! haphazard body number printing on race morning, first wave having to dive start unexpectedly before team managers came running through us to assure us it was a water start and no diving, no official photos so no momento of me crossing the line face beaming with my GB flag waving :( (they gave us a little GB flag to carry as we're running down the finishing straight - lucky i was all alone on the finishing shute, nobody near me, so no need for a sprint finish).

The weather was perfect. Calm blue sea, no wind, warm but not too warm...perfect! i had put suntan lotion on all the bits i could reach but as it was the cut on the back of the trisuit was a little bit too far for me to reach as post-race i had some definite "tan" marks on my back, but it also goes to show how strong the sun was as when i was swimming in the sea each day with my swimming costume on, even though i put suntan lotion on my back, and was only in for up to 20-30 mins max each time i caught the sun every time. Now if you know me you'll know i'm a whiter shade of pale so the sun is attracted to me like bugs are to a light but on the whole my P20 suntan lotion worked a treat and whilst i got a little colour i didn't burn and the only thing that pealed post turkey was my nose! What was painful though were chaffing patches on the left side of my neck, which i get occasionally from swimming anyway but more pronounced post-race so i can only assume that is from breathing on my left side and rubbing?? also, the lanyard with my age-grouper access badge for the race area, chaffed my neck in places so those burns were quite painful when applying sun tan lotion and by the end of the holiday i was trying to avoid being out in the sun for periods of stillness if i could to try and protect my neck.

Wish i could say i was leading my wave by a mile but alas...still nice clear open water for me throughout ;)
Anyways, back to the race...we went off in age-groups, with a few age-groups lumped together at a time. the way they decided who went off when made no sense as first wave was 7am - men 19-29, and then 15 minutes later was us women all the way up to 34 years of age - why 15 min gap when the men are likely to be mostly much quicker?? no idea, because then 5 mins after us we had men 30-34 bearing down on us, and 5 mins after that men 35-39, etc.! i left plenty of room around the buoys knowing i would get the men coming flying through soon enough. I'm under no illusions i'm a fast swimmer and yes i did see both yellow hats fly past and then also a bunch of red hats late on in the swim. The water was crystal clear, with nothing to be seen. Some people saw small fish but i didn't see anything other than some seaweed on the floor and a manhole type cover nearer shore. Oh yeah, and the bloody big black diver that was hanging around underneath the turn buoy!!! You'd think they would have warned us???

After the race i was telling everyone i saw about it as those racing the sprint race the following day (i was racing olympic distance) might want to be aware! i had assumed he was taking photos but no, no such luck, in actual fact there wasn't an official photographer at the race which i think is shocking. The diver was a support apparently, in case you got dunked under the large buoy and got stuck! NICE!! No need of that for me as i had clear water all the way around on a lovely gentle, solo swim! We lined up in the water holding onto the rope underneath the pontoon and i was lucky enough to get a pontoon leg to push off from but i decided to let the 2 people either side of me to get a 1 second head start to give myself clear water but there was no need as i never saw any of them again! Not even a chance to get on any feet, they were gone! So in that respect it wouldn't have mattered if i had pushed off the same time as they were that much quicker than me, some of them 10 minutes quicker, that i was left swimming along, counting to 100s of strokes to pass the time, without any bother. The water was flat, no current, and other than a sting on my leg on the way in it was incident free. I actually felt my swim went OK, i felt quite strong during it and tried to keep a good pace up but i was disappointed with my time until i realised the course was long so i can knock at least 4 minutes off my time probably which actually then makes the time a decent time for me of about 30 minutes. Not great by any means, but for me it's OK although if i can get down to 28 minutes then i would be happy. The thing with this swim course was that there were only 4 buoys in total on the course so there was little to focus on, that made sighting problematic at times, but it also made it quite boring. Regular buoys give you something to aim for to break up the monotony.

Up on the toes!! Start of another lap on the run
The bike was comical in terms of the clear drafting that was going on - packs of riders, and i mean packs of 8 riders all bunched together, tight on each other's wheels - taking the piss a bit really but also poor in that there were marshals out on motorbikes all the time and regular marshals standing out on the course and how nothing was done was pretty shocking as i made a conscious effort at one point to drop back a little as someone i had earlier overtaken re-took me but then didn't pull away and i didn't want to waste energy by re-taking her when i knew it would be detrimental to my performance overall, but also that it could be classed as pacing so instead i dropped back a little out of the drafting zone, but then when you see a peloton go past you it's pretty ridiculous! the course was also poor in that there were no signs in transition to say "bike out" "bike in", etc. and no sign at the mount/dismount line, just a man with a red flag. That along with poor signage back into transition made the final route into transition a bit tricky as you could easily miss the turn. The bike was 4 laps and there was plenty of breeze from speed without there being any actual wind. You had to count your own laps but i can count to 4 so i was OK. Lot of people out on the course shouting for GB and Ben from the club and his girlfriend Nicola were also out there cheering which was nice to hear my actual name being called, rather than just GB or my surname. Thanks to Ben for a number of the photos of me racing here as without him taking photos i wouldn't have any proof that i actually raced!!
Clearly enjoying myself too much here!


Whilst the bike was flat as a pancake the run was 4 laps with a short sharp climb in each lap, which then gradually levelled off before a faster downhill type section that brought you back into town and into some shaded streets before back onto the front and back onto another lap. With 2 water stops each lap i kept cool enough and even though the run felt like a plod i was overtaking more people than were overtaking me. I have a very high cadence when running and for me it's just about putting one foot in front of the other no matter how i feel as if i keep moving, given my high foot turn over, then i still manage to keep a reasonable speed up even if it doesn't feel like it at the time. As it was when i approached the finishing line and saw the timer say "2:29" i was chuffed to bits as i had set myself a target time of 2:30 as my PB from Bala was 2:35. So, even with the longer swim i still did a PB although obviously helped by this being a non-wetsuit swim (26 barmy degrees in the sea un all that) and no wetsuit to wrestle with in T1. But, given it was non-wetsuit my time for the distance had it been the correct distance was actually OK. Anyways, i digress...

On the run i wasn't bothered particularly about overtaking people unless they were in my sights and i knew i could. I had no pressure in this race, no rivals, so i had nobody to try and beat but myself. I had hoped not to place last overall but as it was i was 66th out of 96 females of all ages so definitely not last and given this was only my 3rd olympic distance and still very much learning how much i can push myself over this distance, and only my 8th triathlon in total, i was more than happy especially given my race PB but also my run PB which was 44 minutes! my previous best 10k race was 44 mins dead back in 2009 but for a triathlon at this distance i had done 47 mins something at bala so this was a huge time given the heat, those short little climbs and the fact that it felt anything but fast! I did overtake one girl of a similar age to myself on the last lap and as it turned out that placed me 16 out of 17 in my age-group, rather than 17th! Her run time was a good while slower than mine which is why i overtook her with ease, but she had been that much better than me on swim and bike to begin with. I'll never make up the huge deficits on the swim but i can certainly improve my times there but if i can gain 2/3 minutes on my bike time, and then knock a further couple of minutes off my run time then i should at least be more competitive when racing against the best in my age-group. I will still never win, but at least i might catch a few more and gain a few more places. 

All in all though it was a job well done and whilst i might have been able to push a bit more on the bike maybe, at the time i was going as fast as my legs would take me and on the run it was about pacing it due to heat and the 4 laps being agony in one respect but also helpful in another because you knew what was coming, you knew how to pace etc. so i increased pace a bit after the hill on the 3rd lap and then on the 4th lap did increase pace after hill and kept trying to increase it so when i got about 1k out i knew i was into the final stretch if you like. Running through the town, hearing one of the girls i had met calling out my name with her family and friends, seeing welsh flags and having an extra cheer for being welsh, lapping up some of the cheers because hey, why not, and hearing people shout "Go GB, you're looking strong!!" certainly brought a warm feeling inside and those were the moments i enjoyed, when i thought how proud my parents and friends are of me, but also how proud i am of myself, for setting myself a challenge in the autumn of 2011 to conquer my inability to breathe with my head in the water (not a fear, just had never learnt so would swallow copious amounts of water and waste shed loads of energy - which is why i didn't swim), and for proving that with enough will power and determination you can achieve your goals. 

Representing my country as an age-grouper wasn't a goal when i took up triathlon, my goal was to complete a triathlon and then to be as good as i can be. However, to be able to call yourself a GB age-grouper is pretty cool, even if i got here through the reserve list having just scrapped the qualifying time. I did myself proud and whilst i wasn't the quickest, you can't ask more than a PB race time and a PB run time in my biggest race to date in the hottest conditions i have raced in, with my first non-wetsuit sea swim, outside my comfort zone, without family or friends around. Needless to say i enjoyed a well earnt beer later that afternoon although funnily enough i couldn't allow myself to have one before the afternoon, lol!


Don't think that i was able to take it easy after the race tho!! i went back to hotel to shower and change, grab something to eat, and then had to head back down to collect bike from transition and lend it to someone for the sprint race (there had been major problems getting bikes out to alanya so a lot of people borrowed from others). I got to transition 1/2hr before it was scheduled to open but then mild panic set in when transition was completely empty, no bikes at all, including mine!!!! I found people in official t-shirts but they could only tell me that everyone had collected their bikes and questionned why i thought transition was re-opening at 1:15pm - ummm, because that's what was in the official programme???? thankfully i wasn't the only one who's bike was missing and another girl in my age-group came over and we tried to find someone who knew where our bikes were. Nobody did!! How incompetent is the organisation of this event????????? Anyway, long story short, the other girl, Victoria, went off looking to see what she could see and found the bikes and our transition boxes (lucky i had not left my purse or hotel key in here) outside transition in an area that many people could access, leaning up against fences!!!! not a happy bunny!!!!! with that, i lent the bike to Molly, and then had to hope i'd see it again in one piece the following day. As it was Molly came 2nd in her age-group, and whilst not being overly grateful for the lend of my very expensive bike, at least gave it back without problems or faults. Ever one to help others me but sometimes i just wish i could quell the urge to be nice!

Later on that day i watched the women's elite race and was disturbed by how tiny they all are, like children! I'll never win races if that's how you're meant to look! Still, it was fun to cheer on the GB girls, with Vicky Holland coming second in a sprint finish. I then hung around for the presentations so by the end of the day i was absolutely shattered having walked miles and not properly rested after my race. as it was i went to stand in the sea for a few minutes just to let me legs cool off. That evening enjoyed a well earnt beer and had some dessert, just disappointed it was a bit pants! However, no late night celebrating as i was getting up at 5:45am the next morning to go and support the sprint race, doh! That was another long day as following all the cheering of Ben and Helen in the sprint race, i then returned later on to watch the men's race, only to be disappointed that there was only 1 male brit in the race, and the top guys who had been due to race hadn't come along so the field was quite depleted. Still, cool to see some of the top guys racing and the speeds they go at. That evening i finally started to unwind and enjoyed a lovely evening over beers in the bar with the friends i had made. The setting was beautiful, being able to enjoy a beer whilst looking out over the crystal blue sea and sky, really chilled me out and i was then able to reflect on all that had taken place and what i'd achieved.

My last day i had planned to do tourist sight seeing up the castle on top of the cliff overlooking the beach but my legs were in bits, i had blisters on my feet, my shins hurt from walking too much with flip flops, and i had sores on my neck that i wanted to keep out of the sun. Instead, i woke up in time to go see the elite relay event which was actually great fun, the most exciting race of the event & really good fun, just a shame there was no GB team in the event given the lottery funding they all get. However, that was a great way to finish off the event and i bought a nice 2XU fleece momento of the event, even though it was a tad expensive in my eyes, hey, at least they threw in a free cap! the expo at the event was shocking to be fair. I had expected to be able to buy bike repair stuff, like C02 cannisters given we couldn't bring them by plane, and nutrition stuff, and nice tri gear to buy, but all there was initially was a few items in the 2XU stall, before they finally added more stuff with 1.5 days left of the event, and then they added some promotional stalls but that was it!!!!! Anyway, waved goodbye to the event and then i went back and had a nice gentle lunchtime swim in the sea to ease the aches and pains, before a chilled afternoon watching tennis on TV and just unwinding over a beer or 2. This was my final evening and i decided to treat myself to a nice meal in the neighbouring restaurant as the food on the last night was particularly crap and i wanted indulgence! All week i had decided not to eat elsewhere for lunch as i hadn't felt comfortable eating alone in restaurants where they are trying to entice you in, instead, opting to have lunch in the hotel bar on those days i had proper lunch. The staff were friendly and i knew them. However, the guys at the neighbouring restaurant were lovely and very pleasant so on my last day i returned for a good lunch before leaving as i knew i wouldn't eat properly until very late. As it was i didn't eat properly until the next day as my intention of having room service upon arriving at my gatwick hotel late on the monday were thwarted by no-one answering so i had vending machine crisps & chocolate!

I had a lovely sleep that night and my parents came to fetch me late morning, rather than travelling back in the early hours of the morning and not getting any rest. So that was my adventure! I tanned a little, for me anyway, not that anyone would notice, i had fond memories, but i also wasn't wearing rose tinted specs so could see the weaknesses in the experience also. However, it has motivated me to try and qualify again for the europeans next year which will be in Kitzbuhel, Austria, with a beast of a course up a mountain! If i don't get there not to worry, it's just something to aim for. I'd be more concerned with improving upon last year's time in Bala and then seeing if that was good enough to make the rolldown list again. 

I was straight back to work and even though the race physically didn't take much from me, the travelling, the endless walking, and the emotional experience of it all certainly took it's toll as i struggled in training for the first week and a half with my legs just feeling heavy and not having any oommphff! I made a decision soon after my race that racing again in 2 weeks for Pembroke Olympic distance tri probably wasn't ideal, given my feet needed to heal before running sockless again, and also i wanted to get some good training in before my next big race which was a month from my turkey race which is Liverpool for the british championships at olympic distance, and also a world championship qualifier. So i took the decision to sell my place and give myself the chance to recover properly rather than run a race, and a hard race at that, tired, for that then to have a knock on effect on my liverpool race. So, here i am after that essay, back into training, ready for the next challenge which will be poppit sands aquathlon this sunday, and then liverpool on 12th July. I have no ambitions of making the worlds in london in september, and it being a british championship doesn't mean that i'm good, just that anyone can enter and test themselves in what will be a top-notch field. So my aim is to try and better my PB time again, trying to swim a better time to be more competitive, and then to back that up with a faster bike and run split. All i can do is my best on the day and i'm still very much learning this sport, how hard i can push myself etc., so each race is a chance to test that out and see how far i can do...

If you have read all this then you deserve a medal! Thanks for reading all xx